Pratistha

Et tu Brutus

When we were "karmis" we based our stupid, pride ridden false-ego on our success and achievements within the material spheres.

Now that we've become "devotees" we base our stupid, pride ridden false-ego upon our success and achievements within the realm of sadhana and bhajan.

Some of us even rise to the level of sanyassi without relenquishing the claim that our selfish ego has on us.

Somehow, I would feel so much more fortunate than any proud sanyassi if I could become even just a little bit humble, even if my sadhana and bhajan still wasn't the best. I would love to do this but my stupid, foolish attraction to my own pratistha always gets in the way.

That's the nature of karmic life, I guess. You do what you can and if you're stupid enough, you feel proud about it.

Joy to all beings